Sunday, August 23, 2009

Being Inspired by Others

"It is a great consolation for me to remember that the Lord, to whom I had drawn near in humble and child-like faith, has suffered and died for me, and that He will look on me in love and compassion."

--Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

Many times our belief in God is not as assured as we might like or think. Crises often reveal this. Many times our belief is shaken. "Lord, I believe; help thou my unbelief." Often times we deny Him by simply lacking faith in ourselves. "All things are possible to those who believe." But the beauty here is that God forever looks on us with "love and compassion" in spite of our belief.

God is love. "Ye are gods." You are love.


septembermom said...

This music floats on the clouds. Thank you dear friend for this gift of music and words today. I agree that we forget how we deny God when we fail to believe in our own inherent worth. Have a beautiful Sunday, Judith!!

rebecca said...

When I lost my son a month after he was born, I believed then he had been absent from my life and didn't understand why this had happened to us. I didn't hate God, but I didn't pray. I believe I refused to acknowledged his existence. I was 24 at the time and completely enveloped in my grief even though I had a three year old daughter that needed me.

Fast forward 11 years and I find myself with child again. Unexpected, unplanned. The pregnancy was not a good one (like that of my son's) and I was nervous throughout somehow believing this might not come to fruition either. I had been down this road before of losing a child and I suppose I didn't believe in Him enough to expect a different outcome. In my sixth month I end up in the hospital with preeclampsia. Very quickly my state turned into critical condition. My blood pressure kept rising no matter what they did and my organs started shutting down. The baby was in distress and I was in critical condition. My husband and I were given the speech of the situation and that the baby might not make it but they had to ask anyway: whom did my husband and I want saved. I was stumped. It had come to this. My husband without missing a beat, said me, and I cried and didn't answer. I wanted to live for the sake of my daughter at home who was a teen and she needed me, but I felt to selfishly choose my life over my baby's made me such a coward of a mother. Well, I started praying then and asked God for his guidance and his strength to get through this. The anesthesia never took and I felt every single cut into my belly and I felt when they took the baby out and she did not cry. She was born stillborn. I screamed and begged for death all the while because the physical pain of feeling being sliced open was beyond my mental capacity and what I could physically handle. Once they took the baby out, they put me out. Next time I am awake, I am told the baby is gone. The doctor tells me it's a miracle I'm alive but I am still in critical condition. I am home for a year disabled, recuperating from the birth of this pregnancy - I am forced to stay in bed for six months until my blood pressure stabilized. Once it did, six months later, my muscles are atrophied and I am a mere person of what I once was. I am skeletal and weak, very much disabled, but very much alive.

The funny thing is that the second pregnancy, which was the worst, reestablished my faith in Him. It really was a miracle that I had survived. That year that I was home, I grieved, and I focused on the healing of my mind and body. Maya, my daughter that never had a chance to live, had put me in a different place. I cried for her and for my lost son, but I also cried because I was given the chance to go home to my only living child and continue to be a mother to her again. The child that lived got her mother back. And, I felt then, as I do now, that God had seen me and my family through eyes of Mercy. We had been through enough. Since then, no matter whatever crisis followed, I was never shaken in my belief in Him again. Sometimes a crisis makes you question and you lose your way; but, then again, sometimes a crises brings you back to Him as well.

Wow. I can't believe I just wrote this, but there it is. I just wanted to give you a personal example of two situations where a person gets lost but then finds her way back again. I am finally at peace.

Blessing to you dear sister, dear friend and thank you for this post. It gave my heart the freedom the speak and heal once again today....

Judith Ellis said...

Kelly - It is my pleasure really to share or say anything of value to others. I am grateful that you pass through often for in doing so you encourage me, my sister, my dear friend. Much love to you and Happy Sunday too!

Judith Ellis said...

My dear friend, Rebecca, my sister:

There are so few precious words to express my appreciation for your words here. There are so few emotions to express my love and care for your honesty and sharing spirit. There are so few ways to some up the reasons I write as you have done here: to seek understanding and have honest conversation. So, what I simply have to say is thank you, although these two words seem so insignificant in light of you have just given, thank you.

With a portion of love I give to you from the abundance which you have just given me. Sometimes love does not always seem comparable in every situation, but an essence, a reflection remains.

Thank you,


Bonnie Bonsai said...

I do so agree ... your message is short, concise and to the point.

Yes, it is our denial that made us wavering in our faith.

Judith, I tried sending you email in regards to DB but it was being declined by your domain.

I also sent email to DB directly asking his postal address. Hope he will reply.

Here is my reference blog that you may want to check on me.

I understand there are so many frauds going on in the internet. Since joining too Memes, I personally received many spam letters now and then.

God bless you for coming forward to offer help to DB. I am from Australia.

Judith Ellis said...

Hi Bonnie - Thanks for passing through. I have been in contact with DB a few times today and we should see him through. He has inspired us through his many thoughtful words and the least we can do is help if we can. I am happy for your offer of help too. May God bless you.

Sometimes it is difficult to receive help from others. I sense that he is a proud man, but I also sense that he is yielding. After all, he's an actor of many many years. :-) I honor his work and path. He is a dear sir.

I don't know why you were not able to reach me via email. My address is judedellis@gmail. My last email to DB today was a request for his postal address too. He is presently waiting for some things to unfold. He is expecting to hear something this week. I think he will write again once he knows something.

So, you're from Austalia, eh? I spent nearly a year there and it is one of my favorite places for both the beaches and the Outback. Syndey is most beautiful.

I'll check out your blog. Thanks.

Bonnie Bonsai said...

Hi Judith, you make my day one of the happiest day, I could cry for joy.

I will understand DB's position. But when a situation is pretty tight, we do need that divine help if only we could tell it to the Lord, "Lord, I want it NOW". But No, we can't for He will tell us, "you wait and learn patience".

And when He says, wait, we do not know for how long. Because One day to Him is a thousand years to us. Imagine how long DB will endure.

Poor thing. Yes, DB is a dear kind Sir.

The email you published in DB's blog was yahoo. I'll try and you'll get one from Beaulah also at gmail.

I can't stop smiling now.

Judith Ellis said...

Smiles are great, Bonnie! And I'm happy that you are smiling. I'm smiling too.

Regarding my email, I was again over at DB's blog and noticed the error. I left you a message there too.

Are you still smiling. :-)

Judith Ellis said...

Oh, and regarding that one day that is AS a thousand years to God, we can expect DB's situation to improve instantly, eh? :-) I guess there is more than one way to read a scripture. But the best way is to do so line upon line and precept upon precept and then we still don't get it all right. "Great is the mystery of godliness." But the mystery is lessened in the light of love.

Brosreview said...

A beautiful piece! It brings back memories that I don't want to back to.

Judith Ellis said...

Yes, Ajey, it is a reflective piece, isn't it? It's more than a bit melancholy indeed.

Linda S. Socha said...

Beautiful post for DB. He is a lovely person I believe. How wonderful to reach out to him. Let me know how I may help

Judith Ellis said...

Linda - Yes, I too believe that is a lovely person. I have been in touch with him since I learned of his situation. Things are looking better now. Thank God. He will know more I think by next Tuesday. I hopeful all will work out. I'll contact you should he need our specific help. We are helpers one to another. Peace and love to you.