Thursday, April 2, 2009

Being Transgender II

In a recent post, Being Transgender, I wrote of a transgender friend, Carla. For some reason she remains in my spirit, although I have not seen her for many years now. Moments ago I wrote these words.

Inside out.
Outside in.
Feminine.
Masculine.
Created.
Uncertain.
Phallus.
Confused.
Love.
Pink?
Hate.
Wake.
Breath-less.
Soft.
Hard.
Brilliant.
Extreme.
Weak.
Pain.
Destiny.
Denied.
Image.
Who?
You.
Society.
Nature.
Nurture.
Done.
Peace.
We.
Live.
With.
Our.
Decisions.
Daily.
Constant.
Conversion.
God.
Sees.
Not.
Parts.
But.
Hearts.

You? Me

Where

are

we?

Carla - Wherever you are out there, I send you loads of love.

6 comments:

septembermom said...

I believe in the power of a single word to communicate volumes. I like your list of "single" words that may represent some of the experiences or feelings of Carla. I get the duality of her existence at times from your list.

judith ellis said...

I agree, septembermom, about "the power of single words." What are paragrahps, but a list of single words?

dave wheeler said...

Judith,

"God sees not parts but hearts" Here's is hoping that someday we all as individuals can view people in the same way!

What a terrific sentiment and very special tribute...you're the best Judith!

judith ellis said...

"God is a spirit and those who worship Him must worship Him in spirit and in truth."

It is not that biological differences do not and should not exist, it is that God speaks through us through our spirit and not our bodies.

Cynthia said...

Judith, you've created a collage of
words, the core being the heart of
all transgender people. I would like to see you go a step further,
and create a collage of text combined with illustration. You feel deeply and the end creation
would surely be admirable as well
as thought-provoking and perhaps
healing to some.

judith ellis said...

Thank you for your words, Cynthia. I think I shall do just that. The funny thing about me is that I don't feel for a particular group or people more or less than others. I am forever drawn wherever there is pain, love, passion, grief, lifelessness, joy, I feel it all intensely.

But I must say that I am particularly moved to act for those who are in pain or grief-stricken. I remember as a kid riding through certain neigbhorhoods on our church bus and been moved to tears. Many times I did not know why. I saw the pain in the eyes and faces of people acutely.

As a child and adult I have always found many ways to give daily if only a few words. This is also important. It is important to find kind words to say to others daily, somtimes a good tongue lashing is good too! "Faithful are the wounds of a friend." I have gotten my lashes! A friend speaks truth to you. I value this. :-)